RESTORE ME.

tomorrow's school, its back to jail. : /

went to do homework w alot of people -yihui, zhiwei, weilun, quekquek, siewluan, matthias etc etc at bishan macs.

the huge plasma playing soccer reruns and irritating advertisements is really distracting. and i realise smth surprising, i actually find soccer somewhat interesting.

ahhhhh, i dont want to go back to school. >_< *starts hyperventilating. just worrying about the alot of work they going to throw on us again : /

4 days to prep prelims.

Restore me
I would have no way but Yours’ my Lord
Restore me
Like the eagle spreads its wings and soars
I will lift my faithless heart to a God whose love is pure
Resting in Your arms I am secure
Restore me

last service before sch starts, boo.

i think the school lied to us again. think that preps will be pushed forward.
cant stand it. the super lousy website is.. well, super lousy. noone can access it. : /
*thinks of maths and dies.

to all the JC people, esp NEE, jiayou! : D

was really refreshed during service today, esp during worship.
to center my heart, to know im accepted, that everything inside of me may be everything i hate, but still, you love me. great Father in heaven.

oh, thankyou ian for the chips!
lays texas bbq n lays grilled rib. i wonder how they taste like. hafnt ate my lays bacon too.
yushan: haha, later all yr friends go all over the world n buy you lays
me: they do! i got bacon lays from czech
yushan: HAHAHAHAHA!
.___.
my tonsils acting up again. may seriously go n chop them off lah, next time. then can eat icecream all the time <3

during lunch, me n yihui were getting a slice of cake for seepeng, cause tomorrow is her spiritual birthday (: and at the cake place, i chose the cake and went "eh, do they have candle and lightning?"
slip of tongue lah, but it was funny. must be due to sleeping at 4am.

yihui first uctm!
the people were happily running, walking and CRAWLING around in america room, playing gotcha in the dark, then had worship and yihui taught.
to continually improve myself and have a learning spirit is what i wan to have lah. like common point for today and yesterday's teachings.

i just started reading case for Christ, which discuss all the evidences etc, if Jesus is really real etc. not bad lah, been a thousand years since i read smth outside out sch syllabus. : /

oh gosh, wont be able to blog much i guess.
its back to jail. back to well, the world.

*rolls on floor, wails, bawls.

CLOSET! in end july, definitely smth to look forward to though.

dont grieve the Spirit, ignite the fire, the passion in you, again.
stop the bites, lets run together.

the cf, the cg.

went to montfort campfire. apparently me n pam are the only sec fours there, and we happily sit at the VIPs, wondering why montfort put aguides beside them : /

i had a great time, because me n pam ran outside the hall halfway through (uh yah, it rained right after the VIP started the fire) and started...playing guitar. talking about guitar, rahh! last week i took home pete's guitar in my guitar bag, and now i took home my guitar in someone's guitar bag : / of course both of us cant really play lah, but we just did lah, and talked, fellowshipped (:

watched tengjen, lester n their fellow scouts band performance, it was not bad lah. after that, me n pam went to their canteen and just talk and actually pray there. heard that they were playing praise song when the campfire end lah, grah, missed it : /

after that, we, w rachel ton were like playing hide n seek, w someone lah.
come running home, soon.

before the campfire, had a great northeast training class taught by freedy and sunny.
learnt that throwing paper balls is super fun. lol. and many great solid stuff lah. especially about a heart of learning and to constantly improve oneself, that part poked me hard.

the caregroup on thurs was fun, im sure kar the birthday girl enjoyed it :D
i bought some party blowers and people really like blowing. made kar change into the clothes we got her. :D



through this holidays, (yah, omg, its ending already! im going back to jail *wails) i learnt alot.
really much more convicted about running the race, not just myself, but w a great team n my cg. learn so much about His irrevocable calling, excited about all the things in Youth. improve a little of time management, a little. touched by many responses.

He's worthy.

i love zioncore!

(rachel rushed off and is missing from the photo, boo)

yihui had a meeting with us. we were in j8 KARfe KARtel j8 advanced kar's bd celeb. the waitress boo-boo lah. she brought in the sundae wo lighting it and not sure give it to who, when its supposed to be a surprise. :/

nevertheless, it's a wonderful evening. everyone was really open, poured everythg out. awed by how God change people, how He turns the worse-test circumstances around and find us, make us who we can be.

its a long race, im running w a great team, and all my sheep and neaoners and zionites and northeasters and hopies and the list goes on.

..

b r a i n
d r a i n

stop searching, you'll never find it.

.

but it really isnt as perfect as it seems
if he's the key to their salvation
the stepping stone to tear their hearts open
lord, teach me how to use this key

it has been around
its getting rusty
but with you, the sky's the limit

he knows he's in need
yet he shoves, and he shoves it out of his mind
and its all crashing down on him
he needs the Savior.



been disconnected from the "outside world", has been at my dad's workplace since friday.
im not of use there, mum just wants to keep me there so to ground me in a way : /

actually missed service because of this. : /

i think that smth is very horrifying. those mascots suits, or like people dressed up as cartoon characters, like in roadshows? then these people dance n play w you, then you see them pluck off yr fav cartoon's head, and instead, you see a human. if im a kid, i would be horrified. : /

anw, went to music clinic's third anniversary celeb.
like a gathering of all the "super-s"--there's the juedui superstars, campus superstars, superband, super host and even "never say die". you name it, they have it. only lacking spore idol to complete the whole recent idol mania. but i dont watch all the shows, so couldnt really recognise those people. :/

all the music clinic students did great lah, most of them, in the performances xD
oh and music clinic just established a MCrecords, new recording company in spore. they gave each of us a single, a song self composed by the very cool keybordist and sang by 6 of their seniors there.
yay, support local talent : D

everyone was all very family there, and me,ying,ber n mak felt like outsiders. >_<
we went running around to find our way home. somehow i enjoy this very much.
like how me n xin always lose our way. heehee


bigger than all the dreams of your heart,
My love is.

one more week to canteen food. the horrors.

weird dream

i had a very very weird dream.

somehow, church office moved to a very ulu building, and i was locked out. like every level got security one.
and then, this week church having some talent time thing.
and james kang went to participate, lol.
his talent was his face. ._. pamela suddenly popped into the dream, saying "dont vote for james pretty face, vote for LEWIS (i dont know why i know its this spelling, dreams are like tt one lah) then somehow, lewis' photo is a dragon. but the dragon is coiled like a doughnut in the dream.
appparently, he's competing as a dragon dancer i guess, lol.
and suddenly, gigi wanted to have a end-june camp, thats $179. and pastor jeff disallowed.

._.

hehe.

third week of june

T_T
my throat has joined my body in its protest.
i got not much voice now. : / horrible, terrible feeling.

but i still rejoice i survived through this week w.o fallling sick, like i normally will.
it all started with my gluttony. ate LJS, mango n ba kwa in the same day, down with a sore throat then.

CLC2 on tuesday and wednesday was really, really fruitful.
felt very convicted to do something great in high school, to impact youths.
its the spirit that matters, not the system, not the structure.
had fun leading a mock caregroup, learnt so much from gi n shirley. shirley's story was amazing.

oh, marcom retreat after WFL in wed was woah!~
its at puaylin's grandparents' place, prestigious condo, bbq pit is electronic ._. and its right next to nafa's campus in town lah.
yihui was the entertainer of the night- and she found her first fan, fan of her lame jokes.
oh, and we realised most of the northeast marcom people come from ZION- yihui, me, tian, pete. yongkang, ex-zionite. there's steven from sajc also.
the satay (jontay's brother. this is yihui's joke, if you dont get it, congrats. you arent in her frequency : P) was very nice.
pete got his well-deserved best of the best designer award (puaylin: ahh, actually i have a hard time choosing, cause all my designers are such nice people! ^_^), and yk got his very well deserved one too, he's so faithful.
enjoyed all their company alot. yeay!

heard the news, i wondered what happened. 3 years ago, i found her irritating, for doing the right thing. but right now, she, they, are gone.

caregroup today was anderson n sng combined @ yongkang's house.
wu gui wu gui tiao is fun. (:
seeing all of them respond to dreaming for God. it's overwhelming. but overwhelming w joy xD

one more week to school reopening. *whines.
hit the books, hit hit hit.
piak.

airport

i think it isnt imperfect that our hands cant reach our back properly.
ha. because of that, been able to do smth for my mum. which was kind of nice, considering i suck at all household chores and shes independent. so, yeah (:

in the morn, went to meet xin, ate delifrance! and shopped abit.
i got a skirt thats like, $8. hahaha! i love love GSS!! ans a new sermon notepad.
oh, somehow, there isnt nice tops in zara ):

met up w the rest and went for the Olevel eng seminar. uhm, me, jasm, xin n ying walked out after an hour because we cant hear nor understand the speaker : / not as if anyone cared : /
and we went shopping. its gr8, been donkey years since i actually shopped, mum blessed me w money this morn! (this is very un-yanguang. whoops)

*

its quite ironic, today morning sent ian off thru sms-es while he was at the airport.
and picked pete, jon and huishan up at the airport in the evening. uh, physically.

i was very high and excited. i love love picking people up (: God tested my patience. yihui and cong were abit late, so, i was bursting w excitement, cause the plane landed in T1 alr, and we hafnt leave T2 yet, haha. so, me n mich laughed at them rushing--christmas tree running up an escalator. xD

mich wanted to chain me down, cong wanted to stuff fries in my mouth and strangle me : /
they never see me high before i guess.
and i still went "ha, i normally very sane one", which was exactly what pamela told cong when she went high during camp. and, cong was being very mean to yihui. >: / but it was very very funny, hahahaha.

very very unglam-ly skipped to jon and waved hi, whoops. rushed to pete and took a photo w him w the rest. ran to huishan and hugged her ^_^
she and jon got me BACON LAYS. haha, cool loh. apparently lays there also has spring onion flavour.

first day in days i enjoyed a good and simple day.
tml's WFL, going for CLC2, anticipating. learnt so much during CLC1 lah.
want to learn and apply too.

yeay.
i think its time i hit the books, been hiding for almost a week already.

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ENCOUNTER-ed!

wanted to blog very long ago, but i dont have any photos.
cause, my comp refuse to detect my hp, yihui isnt online and pamela's msn went mad.
i feel so, so sad.

anw!
the camp rocked.

on monday and tuesday, there were gamemasters meetings..
tue, which is the day before camp, i was sitting in PGP hall, and was very touched by everyone's efforts. jiancong looked like he nv sleep for ten days, huiying looked like she never sleep for five days. ._. decor team, actually painted all the encounter! boards that we see (it looks like printed ok) and cut all the styrofoam circles and painted em. the worship team was practising very hard, mama shop people moving stuff, etc etc.
thank God for you guys!

day one: pangseh-ed the gamemasters tying the 4000 water bombs to meet up w zion. sorry, sorry. : / dashed to the track in NUS and they hit 2000 alr, contd after lunch.. and so, the war game began aft the telematch and minigames, and ended with: "ATTACK GAMES COM!" and so, we ended up becoming the wettest of all. but it was very shiok. : D

ruiyong: eh, lays later you dont walk too fast. later you crumble and fall. cause chips mah.
me: ._.
someone: mess with northeast and you'll be chaota!
me: yay, bbq lays.

learnt alot about the Holy spirit.
tomoe got holy spirit baptised. whoo!
responded to Faith during altar call..

thank you sheep for yr lego and candle. ^_^
and thank you yihui : D i appreciate everything you've done.
pamela, huitian's eyes almost jumped out at the pencils you gave me. haha.

daytwo: unit huddle was fun
somehow, it gave birth to RETARDS. which consists of, 5 pple right?
we played aeiou, and scissors paper stone kind of game
where ichigo lose to sailormoon (bleach fans, please dont murder me)

highlight of the day was the altar call at night.
the church used real (olive) oil and put it on our foreheads, representing anointing.
somehow, me n huiying happened to be in the same queue.
then we were talking to each other, with one arm over the other's shoulder.
she was like, "you ah, last year this time still in lalaland ah. lalala, but im very proud of you"
it reminded me so much. true, last year this timing, i was still disconnected from church. its amazing how He works. and im so very grateful.

we kneeled and prayed, and i prayed hard for them.
they dont have forever.
and i know His calling is irrevocable, i'll fulfill my dreams in Him.

anw, omg, awed by eelee's gift of Tongues. its woah. so powerful.
and tracie's brother, keneth received christ : DDD

and, some of neaoners went to snatch yanyu's bottle and blew bubbles. and i got terrorised, thinking they were atoms : /

day three: played the cluedo game in the afternoon.
thank you thank you kang kang! (james kang)
he saw me struggling w the pail of h20, then he helped me carry, when he got blisters on his palms from day one.
and the pail of water got wasted, by tracie pouring it on me. i think if james saw that, he wud faint : / got bullied by the central brothers >: /

bring it on was awesome!
neaone + yihui, luan did crazy thing >_<>anw, i keep thinking they are called AM spastic.

ignite was kickstarted off w the v good dance, and i think samuel and i-forgot-the-guy's-name sang v well. samuel has been v understanding and patient with all the gamemasters, very thankful for this leader.
ignite was physically straining, leg was breaking.
but, was just burning lah. saw pammie and james coming over and praying with the rest of the anderson group, and im really touched.
pam cried, and its contagious lah ok. its like we have so little time left in the school. james must be like o.0!

we were screaming our goals at shirley. : D zion, lets burn.
popped the champagne. and, made gideon's soul left his body.
there was the drinks, confetti and everythg on the floor. and people just heck and contd jumping. thank god for housekeeping. haha.

was having discussion w the group, and we encountered! gi's soul. lol.
he was putting a dead-person face and peep thru the panel of the room, scared kar and the rest of us screamed. lol.

after that, tallked with kar n yihui.
thank you shepherd, for yr patience, for you talking even though yr throat is close to bleeding.
stared at some brothers playing soccer. then walked ard.
slept at 530 (ZZZ)

learn, to love God, and not love the things we do for Him.
that what we are called to, we can, with His empowerment.

last day: loads of phototaking.
were pasing the encounter styrofoam board ard, hehe.
pam kept carrying me ard, and we were very unglam. haa.
went to makan at the Deck with some zionites, and the penang sisters. (:
and went home. slept for two hours.

awed by huitian's transformation, encouraged by louis too. saw zhicai's desire to be a shepherd, and even, nicholas also want, and them taking initiative talking to heidi n jocelyn on the way home.

had a very good discussion w person-who-shall-not-be-named about POKEMON. and its still in the top ten search topics on spore search engines (today's ST)
both agreed that those after mew very commercialised.
igglybuff looks like crap lah ._.
okay, its a childhood thing, like lego.
time to move on. : D

anw, this morning, i nearly hyperventilate and die.
after my encouragements, dear barney embarked on the geog essays, and.. she did 16! ok.
im at like, 7. T_T

oh, ANDchoir won 2 golds! at Czech Republic! (:
they are all coming back tomorrow, YAY!
zion is alot quiet-er w.o jon n pete,
and i miss huishan so (:

mundaneness.

i need to blog, i cant rmb whats been happening, so this is gg to be mundane.
this whole week of school has been very, bleak.






wed-guides' cf. wasnt a flop but wasnt impressive. ha, i still think it wud be nice to rename it the past meet the future. (yah, this is a joke.) saw the combined efforts of people, kinda warm lah.
haha, geraldine rocked the council dance.
pete was.. stoning.

and i wondered what happened to him, when he wandered out of the sheep pen. come running home, wont you? that wasnt the real you i saw.

thurs- the first ever nea caregrp.
wet fun. enjoyed time with this people.

fri-lessons ended at 1035 : D yay!
and went to meet yihui n guihao, then we went off to RC.
after pm, went makan w a weird combi - kar,tian,tomoe,lijia,baorun,clarence,krisstle.
crapped. heard people in the next table shepherding.
the woman winked at us when she left.
soon everyone left lah, grp by grp. then i stayed to finish the 5th geog essay. : /
met geraldine, min shian n friends, then the northeast band. haha.
and i dropped my earpc there and its lost now : /

sat- the p&w atmosphere, to me anw, was very good.
revival living. :D

my ear is blocked, and its very very uncomfortable. : (

anw, AND.choir! jiayou, and be blessed loads. : D

two days to Encounter!!!